Self Portraits

The Break Down Series 

This is a self portrait mini series I created to help me deal with my mental health as I went through a break down. One day I realized I had kept my abuse and trauma a secret for the sake of keeping peace and then later in life for the children of my abusers, however that also means carrying a lot of weight around. So I decided to find a way to let out my inner turmoil and be honest about how I feel and what I go through. In my own way. In my own voice. In my own pictures. 

#1 What if?

It always seems to start that way, just a thought. In real life I love to tell crazy stories and I used my hands to express and accentuate my stories. So here I have used the layers of hands to tell the many layers of stories in my head.

Or some call it -paranoia.

#2 Life to Self

Inspired by Michelangelo's painting "The creation of Adam", I loved the original painting of God giving life to Adam. Here I have made myself so caught up in my own mind that I can not receive life from myself. The life giving me looks upon me like "Girl, just open your eyes and take my hand!"

God was originally accompanied by his angels, I am not but I wore butterfly sweater because it brings me comfort. 

This project has meant a lot to me. Its helped me cope with my break down. Its helped me talk to my followers about not only my own mental health but theirs too. It was scary putting something like this up for my clients and certain family to see, but here I am. I'm not going to hide things anymore. And I am proud that every image is a self portrait and I did everything about this project entirely on my own. Through the love and support of my fiance and my sister (and many dear friends) I am still here to finish this.

#Acceptance

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